Thursday, May 28, 2009

is the meaning of life life's meaning?




what is the meaning of life? a question that begs more question that it simply asks and requires more to answer a few. take a few steps, stop, look back, few steps again, stop, look forward, finally, move on... i think life's meaning can never be contained in one definitive answer.life is a continuos motion which ends only in death, if death really is the end of life, for somehow we still believe in the afterlife or life in the hereafter.as life is a spiralling motion, meaning should also be.the meaning of life therefore is something that cannot be resolved at once but at every moment of our lived existence.live life, that probably is its meaning.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

JOURNEY


In the journey of life...

People come, stays for a while

And then walks away...

Truly, we don't know where the road

We are heading will lead us to

But wherever it may lead us

I WANT TO WALK WITH YOU.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

A LESSON FROM MY SON

Life has been and always will be full of ups and downs. As the famous line in the story Forest Gump goes " Life is a box of chocolate, you'll never know what you're gonna get." I am quite sure, you can all relate to that famous one-liner. We all have our share of topsy-turvy moments.And at one time or another, we have sighed and murmured this line, " ohhh life.Why is it so unfair? The world is so cruel" Indeed, life becomes so taxing sometimes. Ever wonder why some people opted to end their life?? Maybe it's becasue they are tired of living the kind of life that they have.Maybe, they have become tired of finding meaning for their existence. Maybe, they no longer see life the way God intended it to be seen. Perhaps you will ask, how does God want me to see life?

Last May 1-3, my eldest son togetether with Gerry and I attended the 12th Internationla Kids Village in Sta. Cruz Laguna. It was our first ever IKV. Me and my husband were so excited prior to the conference because it will be the first time that we will attend a conference together with our eldest son. Gerrymie Florel, Gelo as we call him is not the typical five year-old boy. He is very sweet and thinks quite matured for his age. And mind you, he has superb interpersonal skills. He can relate to children and adults alike. He is also fond of singing Praise and Worship songs.So when it was time for the Praisefest during the conference, i was really very happy seeing him raise his hands and sing. It was really a sight to behold. But it didn't end there. The worship leader asked the kids to close their eyes and think of the number one blessing in their life and instructed them to raise their right hand when they are done doing so. After aminute, Gelo raised his right hand. feeling curious, I asked him what is his number one blessing. My son with his very young and innocent mind looked at me and replied "my life mama".

I was moved by his answer... So, if you feel like life is so unfair..that you're sick and tired of it. If you're having thoughts that life is not worth living at all..THINK again! A lesson that I have learned from my son is this: "Life no matter how difficult is still and will always be a blessing." Don't you think that is the way God wants life to be seen?



Gelo during the praisefest

A LETTER TO MY BIGBRO


Bigbro ko,

It's been more than 2 years now..your lilsis misses you a lot.Your love, your warm embrace, your assurance that you will always be there for me no matter what(truly you have kept your promise before daddy died). I miss our talks... our bonding.

Last night I was chatting with bgest bro and mama. We talked bout anything and eveything under the sun and when you became the subject of our topic, everything flashed back. How I wish I can just linger on the happy mem'ries that we had. But you know what? I can still remember vividly what happened days before you left us.The pain is still so fresh. It was so hard to keep the tears from falling. I didn't want mama to see me cry, I didn't want her to see a single tear drop fall from my eyes. I pretended that I was okay but deep down inside I was hurting so bad.

It was only last night that I have learned from bgestbro that few hours before you left, you were looking for me, but I was in the chapel. I was crying so hard, begging God to please spare you from death..But then my plans are not God's plans, nor my thoughts His thoughts. He must have heard my prayers and He gave the best answer to it. I love you so much bigbro ko..

lil sis

(From the day bigbro left, until today, my heart still speaks about this song's lyrics)

NEVER SAID GOODBYE

Travelling down the road
Passing the signs that used to be
I remember you and me
The road that leads me home
Is it too far for me to find
The days we left behind
Then the day you left me
It took me by surprise
Do you really love me
Still see it in your eyes
Refrain:
(But) you never said goodbye
You never heard my cry
The day you lefr my side
'Coz you never said goodbye
I live my life alone
Wondering what went wrong
You're trapped inside my mind
You never said goodbye
May be I was wrong
To think that we could ever be
Was it enough for you and me
We could have it all
It's not too late to realize
The way we feel inside
Then the day you left me
Took me by surprise
I know you really love me
I can see it when you cry
Refrain:
(But) you never said goodbye
You never heard my cry
The day you lefr my side
'Coz you never said goodbye
Adlib:
Refrain:
(But) you never said goodbye
You never heard my cry
The day you lefr my side
'Coz you never said goodbye
(But) you never said goodbye
You never heard my cry
The day you left my side
'Coz you never said goodbye

Tuesday, May 19, 2009


We meet a lot of people in our journey to this thing called "LIFE". Some of them just passes by, some stays for a while then leaves while others stays with us through thick and thin. These are the people whom we can always count on. People whose distance does not hinder from making us feel that they are always there for us. The sad thing is, because we know and we have proven that such people will stay with us no matter what, we oftentimes forget to appreciate what they are doing. We even barely recognize their importance(until they're gone).
Have you ever honored your parents, friends, or your spouse for loving you and for just simply being there? When was the last time you have looked them in their eyes and said "thank you"? Days, Weeks, Months, years, or maybe never...

Last night, I received this text message from my significant other...

" Thank you! I am blessed and honored you chose to walk with me. I honor you for the patience, understanding and love that you are giving me. I do hope I am doing likewise..giving you everything, my whole life. I love you and promise to love you, ad infitum."

Remeber, time is too short, honor the people you love, people who means so much to you while they are still there.

I'M BACK!!!

it's been almost a year since I last opened this blogsite. Been pre-occupied with a lot of things, that's why..Thanks to my co-workers before who are still very much engaged into writing. :-) I was browsing their blogs just awhile ago and it knda lit that tiny flame inside of me..that flame which inspires me to write. I hope this is not yet the end but rather only the beginning of more posts here at blogspot. till next time...